One Day I'll

So many things to do, lots of pending work...
have time, have strength, but left no desire,
no joy, no fun, no competition and no fire,
don't know what it is.. but running from something,
I am Trying.. and failing....
growing..and .falling...

full of anger,confusion,distraction and jealous,
don't know what is wrong or right..
which makes my future bright...
don't know should go this way or that..
which help me to cut all the crap...

I am waiting for something or someone,,, or actually trying to leave everything.
but honestly... I don't know
am i actually running or still standing on the same place....

But One day
Ill standup, with Pride
Ill run with Passion
Ill compete with dedication
Ill win with grace
Ill get what i want....without your support,
without your help, and without you of-course...